Chapter 16: Too Close
~Woande's P.O.V.~
Cadarum just saw me walk on waterI Oh, no. Hopefully, he will beleive me when I say he hit his head.
"Cadarum are you okay?" I ask, slighty worried.
"I think I'll be just fine. How hard did I hit my head?" He responds.
"Hard enough to make you see things. Like when you thought the koi fish was a snake." I purposely avoid the second part of him 'seeing things'.
"And when I thought you walked on water. Haha, how could that even be possible?" He asks me, laughing.
Just then, Marcus walks into the infirmary along with nurse Nimony.
"Well Prince Cadarum, your lucky you didn't hit your head too hard. You'll be able to leave with Princess Woande in the morning. Princess would you like to stay here tonight with the Prince?" Nimony asks nicely. I nod in response, and just continue staring simply at Cadarum. He managed to cut his arm slighty on the edge of the rock. And he also did hit his head. Thankfully. Or that situation would have gotten very bad, very quick. Cadarum would think I was a witch. Then he would tell Stellan and then Stellan and Cadarum would probably send us to the dungeons! Great I've thought of the worst case scenario. And now I'm getting anxious. No, no, no, please! No anxiety attacks!
As more bad memories and thoughts race through my mind, I feel myself getting more and more anxious.
What if he finds out?
What will happen if he does?
Will he kill me?
Will he kill Flerb?
What will the people of both our kingdoms find out?
What will they do?
My heart starts racing and my breathing is very uneven.
No. Please. No anxiety attacks! I will not go through this. I won't have an attack... Oh, no... Too late...
I tell them I need to use the restroom and quicky walk to an empty hallway and into a random room. I close the door and sit on the ground. Then I stare at the wall and try to calm myself. I think happy thoughts... and then I hear Flerb.
"Hey. I'm here. Can you hear me?!" Flerb asks. "Woande?! Are you okay? You're having an anxiety attack. Do your breathing exercises."
I attempt to ignore her, thinking that I don't need help.
"WOANDE LISTEN TO ME NOW! BREATHE!" Says Flerb, about to join me in my panic attack.
I listen to her and do as she says. It would be no use in arguing. She always helps me when I'm having anxiety attacks.
"Inhale"
I breathe in.
"Exhale."
I breathe out.
"Inhale"
I breathe in again.
"Exhale"
I breathe out once more.
"Now what happened? Why are you---Oh." She realizes, "Oh, Woande. That won't happen."
Flerb stays after I calm down and have sent her a flashback.
"Flerb I will be okay. I'll talk to you later. Good night."
I say good bye to Flerb and then proceed to block her from my mind. I sit there for at least 15 minutes before wandering back to the room.
"Sorry it took so long. I was wandering down rando-" I am interupted by Marcus shush-papping me.
Oh, Cadarum is asleep. Awe! He is kinda cute when he's sleeping. Snap out of it! God, why am I such a lovesick dimwit. Flerb is right.
"Oh, I'm sorry." I whisper.
I sit beside his bed and think happy thoughts, letting myself remain calm. Marcus stands in the hall talking to Nimony, who is his wife. They're cute together. I, then, sit there in a chair beside the hospital bed and stare into space. I let random thoughts run through my mind, then my mind just goes blank as I stare at the floor till sleep washes over me.
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I wake up to Cadarum and Marcus getting ready to go. Cadarum sees me and smiles.
He walks over and whispers, "Good. Your awake. I was about to think I was carrying you to the carriage. We are all ready, your stuff is packed. We are going to Shmubnoria for a beach getaway on Queen Shmub's private beach."
We walk out to the carriage and Marcus puts our bags in the luggage section and then sits next to the driver. As we leave, I feel myself falling back to sleep. Right before I do, Cadarum sits next to me and pulls me toward him. I'm leaning on him, resting my head on his shoulder. As I fall asleep, he says a soft "Good night, Woande." and I fall asleep.
Cadarum just saw me walk on waterI Oh, no. Hopefully, he will beleive me when I say he hit his head.
"Cadarum are you okay?" I ask, slighty worried.
"I think I'll be just fine. How hard did I hit my head?" He responds.
"Hard enough to make you see things. Like when you thought the koi fish was a snake." I purposely avoid the second part of him 'seeing things'.
"And when I thought you walked on water. Haha, how could that even be possible?" He asks me, laughing.
Just then, Marcus walks into the infirmary along with nurse Nimony.
"Well Prince Cadarum, your lucky you didn't hit your head too hard. You'll be able to leave with Princess Woande in the morning. Princess would you like to stay here tonight with the Prince?" Nimony asks nicely. I nod in response, and just continue staring simply at Cadarum. He managed to cut his arm slighty on the edge of the rock. And he also did hit his head. Thankfully. Or that situation would have gotten very bad, very quick. Cadarum would think I was a witch. Then he would tell Stellan and then Stellan and Cadarum would probably send us to the dungeons! Great I've thought of the worst case scenario. And now I'm getting anxious. No, no, no, please! No anxiety attacks!
As more bad memories and thoughts race through my mind, I feel myself getting more and more anxious.
What if he finds out?
What will happen if he does?
Will he kill me?
Will he kill Flerb?
What will the people of both our kingdoms find out?
What will they do?
My heart starts racing and my breathing is very uneven.
No. Please. No anxiety attacks! I will not go through this. I won't have an attack... Oh, no... Too late...
I tell them I need to use the restroom and quicky walk to an empty hallway and into a random room. I close the door and sit on the ground. Then I stare at the wall and try to calm myself. I think happy thoughts... and then I hear Flerb.
"Hey. I'm here. Can you hear me?!" Flerb asks. "Woande?! Are you okay? You're having an anxiety attack. Do your breathing exercises."
I attempt to ignore her, thinking that I don't need help.
"WOANDE LISTEN TO ME NOW! BREATHE!" Says Flerb, about to join me in my panic attack.
I listen to her and do as she says. It would be no use in arguing. She always helps me when I'm having anxiety attacks.
"Inhale"
I breathe in.
"Exhale."
I breathe out.
"Inhale"
I breathe in again.
"Exhale"
I breathe out once more.
"Now what happened? Why are you---Oh." She realizes, "Oh, Woande. That won't happen."
Flerb stays after I calm down and have sent her a flashback.
"Flerb I will be okay. I'll talk to you later. Good night."
I say good bye to Flerb and then proceed to block her from my mind. I sit there for at least 15 minutes before wandering back to the room.
"Sorry it took so long. I was wandering down rando-" I am interupted by Marcus shush-papping me.
Oh, Cadarum is asleep. Awe! He is kinda cute when he's sleeping. Snap out of it! God, why am I such a lovesick dimwit. Flerb is right.
"Oh, I'm sorry." I whisper.
I sit beside his bed and think happy thoughts, letting myself remain calm. Marcus stands in the hall talking to Nimony, who is his wife. They're cute together. I, then, sit there in a chair beside the hospital bed and stare into space. I let random thoughts run through my mind, then my mind just goes blank as I stare at the floor till sleep washes over me.
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I wake up to Cadarum and Marcus getting ready to go. Cadarum sees me and smiles.
He walks over and whispers, "Good. Your awake. I was about to think I was carrying you to the carriage. We are all ready, your stuff is packed. We are going to Shmubnoria for a beach getaway on Queen Shmub's private beach."
We walk out to the carriage and Marcus puts our bags in the luggage section and then sits next to the driver. As we leave, I feel myself falling back to sleep. Right before I do, Cadarum sits next to me and pulls me toward him. I'm leaning on him, resting my head on his shoulder. As I fall asleep, he says a soft "Good night, Woande." and I fall asleep.